NSR >_<
NSR and I met through one of my friends boyfriends in high school. I never really talked to this kid much, but somehow we got to talking. One day he said his friend, NSR, thought I was pretty and we should hang out. A series of myspace messages later, we were meeting at Dennys!
I thought he was absolutely adorable. As perfect as perfect could get. We fell into this whirlwind romance that I thought nothing could break. I was into the podcast him and his friend had going, and even created this well thought out fan page for it. Him and I were going to be together forever.
Soon little things began to bother me. He had his license but no car, so I always had to pick him up. I was going through a lot of doubts, and wondered if he was really the one for me. My mother was in my ear at any given time about how she liked him, but she knew he wasn't right. That heavily influenced my decision to break up with him a few times, and to take "breaks" from our relationship.
The first time, NSR dumped me. We kept talking as friends, and one night we were driving along and he pulled over into a parking lot, telling me he loved me and that he had made a big mistake. I think that was the single most romantic time I have ever had in my car, haha.
We fell back into our lovey dovey stages in our relationship, but because of my mothers influence, and my want to move further in life, I left him. I think the same day that I left him, I begged him to take me back. When he said no for the final time, I think a piece of me died inside. We were together for almost two years, and just like that, everything was taken from me. Carlos no longer talked to me, NSR wouldn't speak to me, and a majority of fuckers that talked shit about me continued running their mouths. My life love-wise was in shambles.
It was during this time that I met Sean, my first true best friend. I met him while he was working, gave him my number, and we started hanging out a lot. He would listen to hours among hours of my rambling about how my decision was wrong, and I wish I could make him love me again. Sean was there to pick me up when I was at the lowest of the lowest points in my life.
Soon after, he introduced me to Josh, who was just this big ball of awesome. He knows how to make people laugh, he's sweet, and *cough* single *cough*.
With these two guys in my corner, I don't think there was ever a time where I didn't know love from a best friend. We took CT by storm, we constantly went on road trips, and I think I've experienced the best times of my life coming back from that horrible relationship because of those two.
Over the course of time, though, NSR and I started talking again, and we texted every once in a blue moon. It was only then that I woke up and realized that if I HAD the means to talk to him every day, I wouldn't WANT to. We were what we were, and I think I've done a hell of an amazing job coming back from them with the love of my life, Perkins. More on him later ;)
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Affairs of the working kind!!!
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